Life: New Year
Dear new year, dear 2017…it feels amazing coming into this year after 2015 & 2016 kicked my ass. Over the past few years, I’ve had to dig extremely deep to get to know the woman I am today. A lot has changed! I’ve struggled in basically every area of my life with everything from self-worth to motherhood to mending failing relationships. I had to step back and figure out who I was and what I was trying to achieve, believe me, the answers didn’t come so easy.
I realized a big part of who I am is written in the paragraphs of this website. This is my outlet, a space where I come to find peace and explore the moving parts of who I am. So I realized I’m not willing to give up sharing. It's how I blow off steam, it’s my release. A piece of advice I learned the hard way, never let anything or anyone take away what gives you peace of mind. This is the biggest mistake I’ve made over the past few years. Dumbing myself down…but also understand that the things that drive you, always remain inside you, and those things will fight to be released because they represent the true makeup of who you are.
I say all that to say, I'm back like I never left BABY!!! Mainly because the ending of 2016, the most challenging year of the 2 during my hiatus, things became extremely clear to me. Maybe by luck, chance, fait, or the perfect combination of all these things. After you wake up so many days, feeling defeated, one day you wake up renewed. I thought about the things awaiting me this year and I began to get excited, I began to realize that even though I’d given up on myself time and time again, I’ve been given a new year of life. I thought I’d better stop taking that for granted and be grateful for the new experiences 2017 has in store for me.
Obviously the newest thing happening as you can see in these photos, is a baby. Unlike my initial reaction, which was filled with panic and a lot of “holy shits.” Coming to the realization that I’ll be a mother of 2, has really uplifted me over the past few months. The most exciting part of the new year will be navigating as the mother of Chase and Harper. Please comment with all your SOS’s because I know 2 is a lot different than 1, I need all the help I can get! I’m already drowning in a sea of questions and concerns from Chase who’s excited but a little apprehensive about his new sibling. But I’m determined to raise them in love, with a mix of iron fist because let’s be real, it’s a lot going on these days. Ultimately, my goal during this transition is to provide them with the love, attention, and support they need. I really aim to foster their bond early in life because I didn't really have that growing up. Honestly seeing them love each other is going to be something special and I don’t want to miss a moment, which means mama bird has to be on it!!! I’m ready, steady, and prepared to watch this unfold.
Everything truly happens for a reason, and I thank God for giving me 2 pretty amazing reasons. These kids have changed just about everything in my life for the better. Even when I’m giving my son the death stare or feel like screaming at the top of my lungs, I understand that’s life now. When I look back and see all the lessons I was able to teach them, everything will come full circle. And that my friends, will be a beautiful thing!!
So because I’ve been a little incog-negro…let me fill you in on what's happening on the blog in the new year. Yes you will see an outfit post here and there, but I’m shifting the focus of the site to lifestyle. It best represents where my 31 year old ass resides in life and will allow me to talk more openly about the the ups and downs of my 30’s. Per usual, it'll be a wild ride, but then again simple is boring.
The biggest add-on to the site is my podcast!!! It’s launching this Friday so I hope you're ready, actually hell, I hope I'm ready. Please comment on episodes and let me know if you like it or don't, but you better! Or if you want me to cover topics that come to mind. I’m really excited about this! Friday’s episode will be an intro to the podcast and further explain how episodes will flow with the content here on the site.
I hope you guys prepared yourselves for an amazing new year. I’m happy to be back! Let’s make 2017 our bitch, who’s with me???